appreciate.

few days ago, i got this email from my crewnet.

"Dear All,

We have just received grave news that FA Roszalila Rozman MAA 4031 was involved in a fatal accident near the Charterfield round abot. Roszalila had just started serving AirAsia for 7 months and was on her way to become a very good flight attendant. She will be deeply missed by both family and colleagues.

In respect of her sudden demise, the 'Fun Run' scheduled today will be postponed to a later date. Those wishing to pay their last respect to the late Roszalila are advice to contact Flight Attendant Department at ext 4199 for details. We at Culture are deeply saddened by this incident and urge all AirAsians to be cautious and careful when driving all the times, to and from work.

May she rest in peace."

yes, she's my junior colleague. and the first thing i do after i read the email is flip thru my flight details note book and i found out i actually flew with this girl before! although i couldn't remember much about her but everyone says that she's a nice girl, very soft spoken n courteous. how could she go juz like this? according to abang engineer, she drove too fast and skidded when she wanna make a turn in the roundabout, hence she bang towards the divider, the metal divider and the whole piece of metal is like go thru her head and she died on the spot. abang wanted to show me the video of her car, her body but i dare not to see.

can u predict the future? both of me n her are in high-risk occupation. yes i've experienced crosswind landing, rejected landing, clear air turbulence, bad landing n etc etc. all of this things happens in sudden and everytime, wat comes up to my mind is juz "man i stil need to see my family, i still got so many things haven be done, i cannot go juz like that!" but all of those incidents happens out of expectations, if it will be an accident, at least i know that i'll die in another few minutes time and im prepared!

but in her case, she passed away all out of expectations, abang engineer says that her eyes is wide open cause she's shock, tiring of working and drive home, and she's still in uniform! i heard they all said the video of her situation is available in youtube, i feel so bad, y must they upload in youtube ? well, u can say it is a precautions for all drivers out there, but please, respect the death.

may she rest in peace.

hello once again

HOLA frens out there, i've been wanted to come back to my blog for so long time coz nowadays there's so many mystery things happens around me. yeah in the last post dat i publish N years ago when i was still a student. i meant, really N years ago.

juz awhile ago i read wat i wrote before which is my previous post. and it really made me smile. i smile not becoz of it is funny or anything but it brought back memories. i dint realize that i've changed so much, yes it impressed me that i've really grown. im no longer a student who will overspent almost every month, do crazy impulsive buys, and craps like a small lil girl. i used to thought that im very mature, but now, i know that i can be very naive back then.

i wont say that i've fully grown, but putting on the red uniform somehows allow me to wear a mask which is totally not me. trust me, the value that i spend is very high. i've lost opportunity to do something i like, i've lost frens due to lost contact during high workload time, i've lost my weekends, i've lost my 21 years old teenagers life, i cant back to the old time me in this short moment and i'll lost my life in ANYTIME. but there are always pros and cons, i've learn lotsa things in this period such as first-aid, aviation terminology, safety procedures and of course, i learns how to social, i learns how to carry and protect myself, i learn how to appreciate things around me, i'll spend more time with my parents, im no longer a stubborn daughter who always fight with them, answer them, but i finally made them proud. i strongly agreed in this quote "u hav to know the rules of the games, and u hav to play better than anyone else." and everyone shocked that im actually 20 years old when i first join this airlines.

throughout this perioud, im really thankful that my bf is always with me, support me, and bear with me whenever im very down n fight with him, and follow my timing where i did not hav any weekends rest, my working time is up n down, journey to work is very far, and willing to wake up damn early in the morning juz to send me to work, and ensure i reach my place safety. well if u turns around, i would say that i wont do that to him, and i guess he owes me during the past life :) but seriously everything that he had done really makes me felt like im a princess, not a pink color ones. guess wat, i cant believe that my father actually accepted him, THIS IS SUPER UNUSUAL OKAY. well, he's the best among all i had.

i'll 'smallrize' the words in my previous post because i dun wanna remove it away, for those who kaypo and wanna read thru it, please appreciate ur eyes. anyway, all of the entry that i'll publish or keep it in draft is juz merely something that i would like to remember in my life cause u know i cant stuff too many things in my peanut brains. and i still need to learn alot of things about blogging yeah im a loser coz i earn my own money.