torn between 2

some other day, my bf asked me :-

u will choose someone who is not so rich, will send u everywhere u wanna go, loyal to u, caring n always be there for u.... or -

someone who is so rich, will buy u a car, u go everywhere u wanna go by urself, always bz, will give u lotsa money but he'll never be there for u...

walau he felt his place is shaking ar?

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anyway please tell me WHY i hav to corp with sooo many losers in my life ? WHYYY ?! i hate indians i super duper hate them call me a rasict. they're shameless MCBBBBB.

fyi, my parent bought 2 unit of apartments here in sunway and im staying in one of it, the next door were rent to an indian bitch where SHE DOESN'T WANNA PAY THE RENTAL!! im so damn pissed off already lo. last time were my second sister who corp with her n im keep on laughing at her coz the rental were half of her pocket money n the bithc always dragged the rental.

AND NOW IM THE ONE TO CORP WITH HER !!! can u imagine she even haven pay me the august's rental. hello now is like 7th of sept already okay. i've been knocking her doors like forever n she's always not there. im damn heroic i told her housemate that im gonna chase all of them away by providing her transportation n workmanship fees to move away all her things to other tenants in phase 2. oh how much i hope they dun rent any of the house in phase 2 where theres 2 units there belongs to my eldest sister n brother.

i wonder y she can always act like its not her fault for not paying the rental coz she doesn't hav the money to do so HELLO u got no money pls fvck 1000000000000000 miles off from my eyesight i dun wanna see ur shit face acting pathetic and it-is-like-my-fault-to-ask-for-rental. sgnigiaeiungiarnbiugbrbgiubagbjubnugeni euwbui beiwubgiu bW i really sp tl already i wanna write my blog's address and put inside her house so that she can see wat i write opppps she's a loser she dun know wat is internet.

CLICK

this is wat my bf showed me and nst doesn't publish this news. in case u cant read mandarin or wat, this news is about a SIA chief steward rape a normal crew stewardess when they're having night stop in arabic T________T so sad for that girl..

today i went to guilin (guangxi) in china. the flight is superb lo as they juz launch this routes 2 days ago n the load is 100 pax going to guilin and 25!!!! bloody 25 pax coming back... and i cant remember how many hours im sleeping onboard actually.. thank god flight operations pulled me away from my domestic flight to guilin coz they required a chinese speaking crew.. how nice if we hav this kind of flight everyday.. kan..

P&C part 2

no its not private n confidential, it is pros and cons

so talking about pros of being a flight attendants, of course the first thing i would pick on is ---- the salary (bcoz everyone will always ask this ques first). no im not gonna give the exactly figures here i scare ppl robe me *rolleyes*. so fyi im actually earning the same amount as my eldest sister who further her studies to singapore after spm den now holding a bachelor degree from university of queensland AUSSIE. i meant, the figures as she earns from sg (without converting la!) where she holds an upper management level position in a big company there. so u urself judge how much she earn la. the only thing is im earning RM n she's earning SGD. -.-" so actually after converting her's is still double of mine, but dun care i wanna compare oso BECAUSE i can earn this much with only my spm cert! she further her studies so far should get the pay to earn back the money my parent spent on her studies. but i guess i've earned back the secondary school's fees and also my college fees already.

hmm, run out of idea wtf earlier im like so confident got so many pros to talked about but 1 only i stuck liao.

oh ya, on working day wise, we dun hav any weekends or public holiday off. working method is like 4 days working n 2 days off, occasionally we hav 3 days off. having off on weekdays is not that bad thou coz we no need to stuff with ppl mountain ppl sea on the shopping malls n traffics on weekends. (yea i hav to say this -.-) and timing wise, haih, when teenagers waking up time im deadly sleeps, and when ppl juz gone to bed, i have to wake up. my driver bf so kesian he have to follow my timing, okay gonna ajak him to join me as FA soon.

another thing is we can actually met quite lotsa different ppls from around the world by flying here n there everywhere, if i happens to keep all the name cards that given by pax, i think i can form a big name cards holder already. see i always complains about this pax that pax, actually there are some nice ppls travelling too. do u know that actually ziana zain, anuar zain and some others malay artist are all flight attendant b4 they starts to join entertainment field ? nyeh nyeh, i cant say anything here if not it proofs wat my bf say was right (among 10 girls, 8 of them wish to be either fa, model, or a celeb). mehhhh.

so as an airasian, of course i hav some privileges like free cheap fare flights. nothing is free. but the amount that i pay for a kb flight is roughly a bus fare to kb n definately cheaper than the damn sleeping couch train fare. when i juz join that time my siblings can travel cheap too but now only entitle for my parents. so my dad is abit happy about that la he can come here anytime he like. n last time he had a Castrol function where castrol provides rm888 on transportation for him to come over to kl, when other ppls is so annoying to get very expensive fares, my dad n mom came over with very cheap fares. dats y i can go back to kb so often i even went back juz to change my hairstyle n to do facial.

besides that, i got 6 coupons which entitled me to go anywhere aa fly to juz only pay for the airport tax. each coupon covered thru n flows. n the nominee names for that coupon is for my parent siblings n my bf. woo imma going to hk or cambodia on november wooo the fares to hk is like rm120 wahahahhaha so cheap can die.

and talked about experience, i think if i resign from aa or get terminated, this would be the nicest and miserable memories that i've got in my entire life. my fren who is no longer a fa told me, it is very easy for her to get a new job out there as fa portrays a friendly and flexible reputations. we can handle everything no matter emergency, first aids, handling customers and with good communication skills. yea i know most ppls out there say that aa crew is lousy in english or wat but still, we're the best among all because we're flying.

and now i got stuck again i tot i got so many things to say but now i cant recall any of it. anyway, suprise again. when i get this from my own fa executive, one of my colleague saw and say 'wah i never get any compliments yet leh', den i told him 'i also duno y i think accidentally only la i dint scold pax or get complain also lucky liao now i got compliments.' hahaha.. anyway i dint get extra pay on it lo.

this one appeared on the screen i show previously

did i treat anyone nice on bangkok flt ?

the content

of politics

frankly, i dun really know much about the politic issues and i never felt curious about that. anyway, my bf is so kepo he knows everything and always brainwash me with those issues so i actually got to gain a lil bit of knowledge thru him.

anyway, big congrats to Anwar for winning the Permatang Pauh seat with 15,671 majority. finally there's a lil hopes of changing.

imma gonna celebrate the merdeka on air i hope those fireworks doesn't strike the aircraft. i think that celebrating merdeka has becoming a sake of celebrating rather than to remember the comes and sacrifices of our independence day.

365 days ago

exactly 26th aug 07, im officially employed by airasia bhd. with 2 months of initial course training, i've been flying for 10 months!! man i never expect i got such a good patient and endurance u know. seriously, flying is not that fun.

*playback*
when i finished my diploma last year n enjoying ass shaking and freelancing life, i surf thru airasia.com n wanted to get a flight ticket back to kbr for hungry ghost month praying ceremony. and when i surf around in the web i found there's some applications form for flight attendant n i juz send for the sake of send. few days later, they called me up for interview n i got the shocked of my life. i never expect they will call thou.

fyi, i attended the interview without letting my parents know, and without knowing wat shud i prepared and i juz go! my bf send me to lcct and waited me for the whole day from 8am to 4pm, u can answer y i love him so much. so i've gone thru all interview session on that day and leaving lcct with 'watever la'. and never expect much.

there's 5 session, there's around 100++ of us went and only 15 of us gone thru the last session. the last session was 5 panel vs 1 me. i remember one of them asked me 'so u've saw our flight attendants out there, all of them are well groomed with nice make ups, y u seems like never put on any make up?' and guess wat i answered.. 'oh, i thought u all would like to see our nature complexions as everyone will looks nice on make ups.' well, i guess they're really inspired with my answer facts im sucker in make up. and i dun even know who is the founder of airasia that time call me a loser. 马来人 are very kiasu they summore print out the company's history n start memorising it and end up failed.

few days later i went back to kbr like nothing happens. and i get second shock of my life when they called n asked me to do medical check up. means THEY GONNA EMPLOY ME IF IM NOT HAVING ANY DISEASE OR AIDS. at first i postponed the medical check up, awhile on later they insisted me to go for medical check up the next day as the class they arrange me to go will start soon.

after discussing with my parents, my mom so supportive n went to travel agency n get me a MAS flight back to kul the next morning for check ups (coz aa full flight) and left the unhappy dad alone, my dad is so antique he dun like me to take this job. so i've only travel on MAS for twice in my life, n that was the last time. (now im a big time aa supporter)

lam nua look for interview

KBR

omg seems im having all morning flight in these 4 working days, imma going back to KBR after my last morning flight tomorrow to spend my 2 days off in KBR!! oh im such a happy girl. anyway the hongkong flight was okay coz the asshole leading dint bother to bully us at all as she's under leading probation n observation (too many complains).

yesterday i was on standby 1 and get called up to shenzhen. walao the immigrations officer over there is so damn strict bcoz of olympic. after i clear all the crew's passport and passed thru the scanning part, walao they scan my body for around 10 minutes bcoz the scanning things keep on flashing. i told them the thing will flashing coz there's magnet in my ID&AirportPassHolder then they kept on asking me to take out the magnet. HELLO im leaving ur country in 30 mins time la do u think im able to plant a bomb in ur place with only 7 crew passports in my hand?! and how am i suppose to take out the magnet as it is sew inside the leather holder? man, pls save ur time and do something better la.

im flying to hong kong with an asshole a kaki taruh leading tomorrow. bless me :(

pet

i cant actually remember how many pets that i've owned exactly since i was young. but in half month of times later, IMMA GONNA GET MY PARCIAN KITTEN ngeh ngeh ngeh!! i've never plan to get a pet in kl seems im staying in apartments and pets would be troublesome coz we need to bring them out for walk n shit etc etc.

but 2 days ago when im on duty to macau i flew with this steward mr paul leong. thru the chit chatting session on 4 hours flight i get to know that he owned a cat n i felt funny at first. and he told me that there's one pet shop in nilai where they sell this very cute parsian kitten in a very reasonable price. so i find it abit interested already but still i hav to consider about the shits the furs the maintainance fees of getting a pet.

so today is my day off and im so free so smsed the sister who is back in hometown n see whether she's interested anot den she replied me 'wah get the cat'. so im very kan cheong and straight away sms paul n ask him to check out the availability of the kittens in the pet shops. few hours later paul replied n said the white color parsian male kitten only left one which the tail is not so nice n others is all female. wa potong stim lo im abit sien ad then awhile later he called again said there's another group of kitten which is in grey color.

after considering n discussing everything we plan to get the grey one. but the kitten is still very small so must stay together with the mother, i can only get it half months later :)))))) man i hope it will be cute forever dun turns out to be like my dog back in hometown bloody cute when small den very ugly when it is grown. i'll donate the cat if it is not cute.

my bf juz told me he dreamt that i died on a hanoi flight. -.-"""

vain

this post is specially dedicated for mslimcurly. if u find it eyesore or heart attack, pls proceed to the next entry thankiu.

hi do i look like a princess ?

wat about this ?

actually im like this in real :)

eh i dint put on false eyelashes la coz my ori ones is enuff for me n i find it hard to open my eyes if i put on the false one, thus im afriad that i hav to purposely open my eyes big.

firefly

to 2 humans i told them im going to watch firefly yesterday, and both of them give me the exactly question. the airlines ah? y go kuala selangor, i tot in subang airport? walau i got so noobz anot goto see folker aircraft in subang? (finally this is an entry abt real firefly. i've been read thru so many ppls complains abt firefly the airlines in their blog)

so yesterday was 080808 and my super bf said wanna create a memory in our life, so we plan to go kuala selangor to see firefly and we left home after confirm the locations and maps thru internet.

actually so-so only lo. in the web pages itself, they've written that we are advised to bring our own insect repellent. i tot the repellent is used to spray firefly coz there might be lotsa firefly attacking humans ?!

the journey takes us around 2 hours from sunway to kuala selangor and it is around 730pm when we're there. to my suprise i felt that im foreigner coz all the ppls there were japanese and suddenly pop up 2 malaysian who speaks mandarin. watever, the entry tickets cost rm12 per adults.

we'll take boat cruise thru the river, or i should say 'teh'. coz the water is like teh ice's color if it is teh ice must be damn nice coz it is super 'KAO' type of teh. our boat start cruising from 8 when the sky is dark. same thing, me n my bf were in the boat with the japanese. when cruising time, we're not allowed to take any pictures coz the flashes will scare off the fireflies (or they scare dat we can see there's all bulb in the pictures -.-) and hav to kept quiet throughout the journey. the cruising journey takes us around half n hour. their boats got no noise at all one lehhh!

I TOT THE FIREFLY IS EVERYWHERE IN THE SKY BUT HELL NO! all the fireflies hide in the tree on the riverside. quite nice la flashing here n there like christmas tree but they only hide on one kind of tree. den i told my bf 'yalor因为那个树比较容易装那个灯ma' seriously i suspect that fireflies was fake one to con foreigners coz the light all flashes at the same time. after that we can see la the lights actually is moving one means the firefly is flying lo.

i remember my boss ever said that firefly can only live for 1 week or few days time coz their life is very weak. (in other word he meant MAS give the correct name to their sub airlines coz they wont live any longer heh heh) anyway m still glad that i've seen so much of firefly b4 they gone vanish and been to that place so that i know it is not a nice place overall.

WALAO THE INSECT REPELLENT IS USED TO AVOID MOSQUITOES. i think the mosquitoes even much more than firefly lo. and the river is dirty where u can see so many rubbish floating on the surface den u will kept on suspect whether that one is rubbish or crocodile T___T.

after that we left and was thinking to go for seafood coz kuala selangor's seafood is heard to be very fresh n cheap. but then we cancel the plan coz we're rushing to redbox in low yat to meet up with frens. dats it my 080808 gone juz like that :) i missed the opening ceremony of olympic :(

p/s: if u ever think that place is super romantic n think about proposing ur gf there, better NO. bcoz u will end up propose mosquitoes and a very bo mood's gf. and dun ever rent the chalet there coz u'll be staying in a kampung where there's nothing but mosquitoes around u.

on the way

finally we're reaching

behind us was the chalet.


the entry tickets


boats and teh


very anticipated punya japanese


saw this when we left redbox 4am. so sweet of them T____T

rest day

im supposed to do shenzhen flight now and i juz woke up. i missed the flight with marian neela the superb leading crew BECOZ TODAY IS MY REST DAY !

rest day means im not fit to fly today. let say if im having day off, the flight operations dept can call me to go for flight if they really short of crew and provided extra pay coz it is day off. rest day means, they CANT call me to go for flight at all no matter wat happens bcoz im suppose to rest due to the high working hours the previous day.

yeah, in my entire life, this is my first time working for 13 hours, BLOODY 13 HOURS ! all credited to stupid typhoon in guangzhou. my reporting time was 310pm in the afternoon yesterday, alrite everything was settled and 4 hours later, we're holding on air for like 20 minutes due to the really bad weather and we cant land. im P4 infront with leading and both of us were so scared coz the lightening and thunderstorm keep flashing n strike the aircraft.

i told my leading, thats it our flight back to KUL will be delayed for sure coz they typhoon attacked guangzhou for few nite straight ad. so we manage to land lastly at 830pm. it was raining like cats and dogs out there, after pax disembarked and pax are going to kul all boarded, we was suppose to leave latest by 9pm, and we were bloody delayed on ground for 3 hours!! and there's 30+ other aircrafts was delayed.

my roster touch down time in KL suppose to be on 1am. so i smsed the bf ask him to pick me up by 230am. after dragging and waiting for cleareance to go by ATC, most of the pax like never eat for bloody 10000 centuries n keep on making noise, so we hav to do service on ground. when it was like 1030pm, captain asked if any of us felt exhausted and needs a nightstop in guangzhou, my leading straight away point at me coz im actually having nose block and sore throat. so my set crew, captain n fo is all under my hands, if i said i need nightstop, all of us are not going back n stay in guangzhou for one nite, of course pax also nightstop la. so after discuss with my crew, we plan to go back. so we all juz sit in the aircraft n wait for the cleareance again.

actually its quite fun delaying provided u're flying with marvelous set of crew. had quite lotsa fun even my body is very heaty coz im P4 and before leaving kl that time i hav to do boarding n weather in kl was super duper hot can melts.

at 1130, we finally got clearance to depart, and when i wanna sms my bf ask him to pick me up at 4am in the morning, i couldn't sent any single sms and when i check my credit, it is bloody rm1.45 and scare the shit out of me. i remember i still hav around rm20 and my leading told me, it is rm2 per sms to sent from gz to msia. OMFG! sipe ko lian my bf waited for me from 230am until 4am in the airport MUAHAHAHA.

departed at 1145pm n touched down in kul at around 340am. after that went up to office we summore met the crew who do morning guangzhou flight where their reporting time is at 445am. man never in my entire life i finish work at 4am in the morning. so my whole set of crew were having rest day today. tomorrow was my standby 3 and there's 80% possibility of not getting call up. wat can i do ?



deng. surprisingly, u saw the 05aug08, 4.06am ? -.- i saw this things on the LCD screen that hang up high in the flight attendant department. I GOT GUEST COMPLIMENTS weiii. super suprise lo u know i know y la. ya my picture is sengek bcoz the slide show is running ma. aww.. so touch T___T

pros and cons

my bf always told me, if there's 10 girls out there, 8 of them would wish to be either a flight attendant, a model, or a celeb. of course, i will always fight with him and defend myself.

i remember when i was young, no matter in tuition centre or school, whenever teacher asked us to write an essay with title 'about me', or 'my ambition' (ie. 我的自述,我的自愿), i will always end up writing i wanna be a lawyer, teacher, doctor, police or nurse etc etc. hey, those were small kid's super idol lo.

so seems flight attendant always portrays a 'bimbo' reputations, i would like to share with u all how glamour a flight attendant can be. (in my company)

1) during transit time, we hav to collect the rubbish in the cabin that left by passengers. clean the chips that left over the carpet by ninja passengers coz there are holes in their mouth. (dats y now AA ban selling chips on board)

2) we hav to check the toilet every 30 minutes. check means, clean indirectly. vomitting, periods, wrongly aim or shits. YES WE HAV TO BLOODY CLEAN IT.

3) the carts that we used is bloody heavy, and we have to pull in n out everytime. i hav lotsa muscle now.

4) this one shows that we're super bimbo. we hav to smile all the time even scolded by passengers.

5) in my company, there's alot of OGK (orang gila kuasa). so when u're flying with ogk on the particular day, ur life will be terribly miserable cause u might tiok taruh in anytime.


further explainations:-

1) humans are very ego. when they pay for certain amount, they expect to use the service for all. do u litters anywhere in ur own house? if u dont, pls dun do it in public. is that not we dun do rubbish collections, u give a lil bit of co-operation can save us lotsa time.

2) use ur common sense, if u felt like vomit at home, will u vomin in the toilet bowl or in the basin? but some ppls are so **wow im damn rich i can travel with aircraft** clever to vomit in the basin. vomit in basin means, stuck, stuck means, WE HAV TO FIX IT UP.

there was once a Hanoi flight, when i wanna step into the toilet, i saw there's few drops of bloods on the floor n toilet bowl, MAN IM GONNA CRAZY I TELL U. dun tell me u suspect ppls doing abortion in the toilet or commit suicide, so obvious it is period okay. apparently those ppls dun believe that ppl can do curse thru periods -.-"

the wrongly aim case that happens in every flight. hello guys, when u stand and pee, wat is ur hand doing that time ? can u pls hold ur 'brother' and aim properly? even if the aircraft is shaky or u TER WRONGLY AIM, can u pls use the hand towel and wipe it off ? is not that i ask u to clean ppl's, is ur's, UR'SSSSSS !!!

3) about the cart things, nothing much i can further explain coz we got no choice T____T

4) hmm. this is SO NOT ME. but wat to do, i've said that putting on the red uniform somehow allows me to wear a mask which is totally not me. LOL. ppls who know me well surely know my personality. i wont keep myself shut if ppl trying to mess with me or scold me for no reason. but hey, my kungfu reach the highest level already i can control my temper very well now. but for those who is really really too grumpy and skb, i will still laser, in a very polite and smiling method and cursing deep in my heart.

5) this is a very hard opening for me. flight attendant hav to be very very courteous, no only to the passengers, but to our fellow colleagues. i totally cannot accept it when i started flying coz i hav to introduce myself to EVERY crew that were in the office when i was there. 'hi morning im so and so nice to meet u' walao is not that everyone will remember u lo. but for ur own safety u better do so coz u might miss out the ogk if u dint do so, and the next time u fly with them, ur life will be super miserable coz they will try their best to taruh u. and most of those ppls are with surname:马. name: 来人 . super duper gila kuasa lo thank god im now consider as 'quite' senior and know most of the ppls ad so no more this kind of life for me. but still, there are some old horse there where i still need to do so sometimes. *roll eyes until eye ball drops*

im so lazy to talk about the pros now.. update again next time..

again.

do u believe that bad thing always comes in three ?

they're now coming out with guildlines of closing the aircraft doors. know wat ? there's one new crew fell down from the aircraft when she wanted to close the door. YES. fell down from THE BLOODY AIRCRAFT. can u imagine how painful is that ? and now the girl is currently in hospital doing her recovery but she most unlikely will back to flying coz she broke her arms and her spine.

this girl has been flew for 3 months, and i wonder how she can fell and u know AA crew is another CNN channel, there are always DAMN MANY set of stories, according to her set crew on that day, P4 was on ground doing the gate boarding, suddenly she heard something fell down from the back door and she tot that was rubbish, when she got back her sense, she found out that 'rubbish' was in red color (uniform la not blood ok) and she said 'yang u imagine her tangan semua dah bengkak bengkok nok'. WALAO SIPE GELI LO.

the height between the aircraft door and ground is like 1 and half floor high, they said she steps her foot on the stairs when she wanted to close the door and she dint know that the ramp guys is pulling the stairs underneath. but hello la, the door is super god damn heavy ok do to u expect girls to close the door like close ur bloody car's door? i even sometimes also need to step the foot on the stairs in order to 'borrow energy' to pull the door in.

today is the 2nd day of chinese's hungry ghost months, my bf told me there's already 2 big accidents happens in kl and keep on remind me dun simply say ghost story on board, wei then where is our entertainment?

appreciate.

few days ago, i got this email from my crewnet.

"Dear All,

We have just received grave news that FA Roszalila Rozman MAA 4031 was involved in a fatal accident near the Charterfield round abot. Roszalila had just started serving AirAsia for 7 months and was on her way to become a very good flight attendant. She will be deeply missed by both family and colleagues.

In respect of her sudden demise, the 'Fun Run' scheduled today will be postponed to a later date. Those wishing to pay their last respect to the late Roszalila are advice to contact Flight Attendant Department at ext 4199 for details. We at Culture are deeply saddened by this incident and urge all AirAsians to be cautious and careful when driving all the times, to and from work.

May she rest in peace."

yes, she's my junior colleague. and the first thing i do after i read the email is flip thru my flight details note book and i found out i actually flew with this girl before! although i couldn't remember much about her but everyone says that she's a nice girl, very soft spoken n courteous. how could she go juz like this? according to abang engineer, she drove too fast and skidded when she wanna make a turn in the roundabout, hence she bang towards the divider, the metal divider and the whole piece of metal is like go thru her head and she died on the spot. abang wanted to show me the video of her car, her body but i dare not to see.

can u predict the future? both of me n her are in high-risk occupation. yes i've experienced crosswind landing, rejected landing, clear air turbulence, bad landing n etc etc. all of this things happens in sudden and everytime, wat comes up to my mind is juz "man i stil need to see my family, i still got so many things haven be done, i cannot go juz like that!" but all of those incidents happens out of expectations, if it will be an accident, at least i know that i'll die in another few minutes time and im prepared!

but in her case, she passed away all out of expectations, abang engineer says that her eyes is wide open cause she's shock, tiring of working and drive home, and she's still in uniform! i heard they all said the video of her situation is available in youtube, i feel so bad, y must they upload in youtube ? well, u can say it is a precautions for all drivers out there, but please, respect the death.

may she rest in peace.

hello once again

HOLA frens out there, i've been wanted to come back to my blog for so long time coz nowadays there's so many mystery things happens around me. yeah in the last post dat i publish N years ago when i was still a student. i meant, really N years ago.

juz awhile ago i read wat i wrote before which is my previous post. and it really made me smile. i smile not becoz of it is funny or anything but it brought back memories. i dint realize that i've changed so much, yes it impressed me that i've really grown. im no longer a student who will overspent almost every month, do crazy impulsive buys, and craps like a small lil girl. i used to thought that im very mature, but now, i know that i can be very naive back then.

i wont say that i've fully grown, but putting on the red uniform somehows allow me to wear a mask which is totally not me. trust me, the value that i spend is very high. i've lost opportunity to do something i like, i've lost frens due to lost contact during high workload time, i've lost my weekends, i've lost my 21 years old teenagers life, i cant back to the old time me in this short moment and i'll lost my life in ANYTIME. but there are always pros and cons, i've learn lotsa things in this period such as first-aid, aviation terminology, safety procedures and of course, i learns how to social, i learns how to carry and protect myself, i learn how to appreciate things around me, i'll spend more time with my parents, im no longer a stubborn daughter who always fight with them, answer them, but i finally made them proud. i strongly agreed in this quote "u hav to know the rules of the games, and u hav to play better than anyone else." and everyone shocked that im actually 20 years old when i first join this airlines.

throughout this perioud, im really thankful that my bf is always with me, support me, and bear with me whenever im very down n fight with him, and follow my timing where i did not hav any weekends rest, my working time is up n down, journey to work is very far, and willing to wake up damn early in the morning juz to send me to work, and ensure i reach my place safety. well if u turns around, i would say that i wont do that to him, and i guess he owes me during the past life :) but seriously everything that he had done really makes me felt like im a princess, not a pink color ones. guess wat, i cant believe that my father actually accepted him, THIS IS SUPER UNUSUAL OKAY. well, he's the best among all i had.

i'll 'smallrize' the words in my previous post because i dun wanna remove it away, for those who kaypo and wanna read thru it, please appreciate ur eyes. anyway, all of the entry that i'll publish or keep it in draft is juz merely something that i would like to remember in my life cause u know i cant stuff too many things in my peanut brains. and i still need to learn alot of things about blogging yeah im a loser coz i earn my own money.

certified.

a deadmeat is posting dis now, today is my first paper for this final sem's examination. and it comes to a main paper called Malaysia and International Relations. basically it is something like relation among the nations and i need to know a lot of cases studies to pass this paper, and for the past few days, i've been stuffing my tiny brain with god-damn-lots of cases that i would never wanted to know and never concern about in my entire life, and peilyn brought back a senior to our house n joined our study group last nite which makes me wowed o_O coz that senior is actually resit for this papers and i felt she's damn so keng coz she can simply bubbled things like from the war until conflict, from united nations until malaysian's foreign policy with the methods like i used to craps. but wat makes me even shocked is, with her knowledge, i tot she can scored the papers like closing eyes and she told me that actually she had failed the paper for twice and today is the third times she sit for this paper, huhu, dis makes the 5 broadcasters in my house lost the confidents n spirit to fight, coz we know nothing. and particulary i damn hell hate the lecturer for this subject, coz i felt she's actually felt happy n satisfy with seeing ppls failed her exams n cannot graduate or n failed to continue advance studies coz i saw damn many new faces to sit this papers n bcoz all of them is my seniors who failed this papers n retain !! and i'll be seeing my junior too coz in a certified deadmeat in this paper and byebye monash. 80% failed n 20% miracle. seems like every broadcaster wrote that they're dead for this paper in their personal msg for msn. all the best guys. here i show u guys how easy the paper can be, 3 essay questions for 100%.

Q1. "The scarcity of resources has been the main cause for most of the International Conflicts." How far do you agree with the statement? Provide relevant examples or case studies. (30 Marks)

Q2. "The state's narrow conception of sovereignty has led the United Nations to its shortcomings as an effective crisis manager." Do you agree with the statement? Your answer must be supported by revelant examples or case studies. (35 Marks)

Q3. Power can be measured in different ways. Do you agree that power is always vital in the Malaysian Foreign Policy? Provide relevant examples or case studies to support your answer. (35 Marks)

- i salute u if u can answer. coz its actually nothing to do with theory from the notes, all answer is from the case studies. shit -

tadaaa!!!

okay, its been a real real reallllly long time i never update anything here and so sad coz im about to forget this blog's login email and passwords gila. so so so, wat im up to recently ? hmm, went to penang again last week, planning for my pulau trip, making decision for my changing point in life and also gaining weight :) dis is a really serious matter coz i went to a sports house in bangsar the other day, and the supervisor in the shop asked me to check my weight with the digital scale and it printed out a paper like a resit, den the paper there jots everythings about my calories my fat my everythings and regarding to my height, im actually overweight den i cant accept this truth and simply grab a dumbell and paid, and now the purple color thing is in a corner after i really touched it for 2 times. so about my changing point in life, im still confusing whether i'll advances my studies in monash for communication or get into the society college, im so so so so freaking lost now and everythings will only settle when i move into sunway at may and come back from the redang trip. ok neglet all those first coz now the JOY of redang trip is burning my head muahahahaha yeah im going to redang at 14th-16th may :) specially thanks for my baybbie men who trying best to book for the trip coz when i called a tour agency the other days, the ppl told me theres NO MORE EMPTY resorts for may as it is a super peak seasons and im so anticipated coz myboy said that is the most possible time we can see the legendary blue sands, dun ask me wat is dat coz he's the information provider. haih, the final exams will hit us on 23th april until 4th of may. damn bored and pissed off coz i need to give up the interesting pay for pcfair's job and bury by those freaking notes at home and waves with the rm540 :( can someone kind please help me to get a speaker and router in pcfair a ? im soooo borrrriiiinnnnggggg and stressed up now and the tan wai men will only back at 7th may. damn the bored. oh ya, sharon and chootsinling is in kl rite now, cant wait to see u girls, crocs is back !!

incomplete.

recently, there's a question i can hear whenever i am and watever im doing. 'hey, wat will u do after diploma ? taking advance ? or degree ?' and this question seriously screw me up badly, coz currently im so so so directionless and apparently everyone's planning for their furthur studies or career. if im not mistaken, at my previous post i did mentioned that i assume i'll failed my last semester's paper rite, and thank God coz i really failed, but in other way, i still thank God coz i can re-sit for those papers in this semester, and till now, i haven inform my parent that i failed coz i really dunno how to tell dem, ppls around me kept saying 'wow yeen, u 百年道行一朝丧 le' which makes me much depressed coz i've been tortured till the last 2 sems in diploma course without fail any papers until the last 2 sems but i cant blame anything coz i deserved it as i play really hard last sem and damn regret for working for the GWCf in genting, and the papers really getting tougher each semester, there are 5 broadcasting students in my house and there's 4 ppls failed included me. no jokes, there's still 5 weeks to go for this sem, and i got damn alot of assignments to be done by next week, which meant, i still got around 3 weeks to prepare for my re-sit papers and also dis sem's main paper, i duwan to stay down n retain the papers after dis sem, how much i wish i could pass all the papers, pray pray pray very hard !! but hell, how come recently so many freelance jobs ? last week, a long-lost contact fren - keith called me and told me that he's no longer working in JOBs.DB but in AppleBox Asia currently, which it is actually a commercial company, he asked me goto casting in his company today so that next time i might will appear in some tv commercial in the future, after he explained everythings, everyone around me support and asked me to have a try coz there's nothing lose to try, but i start wondered, is this the career that i wan ? im so lost, n i sms'ed keith last nite to wish him birthday n told him that i couldn't make it today coz i need to attend classes, he told me its ok, and he'll cast me again when i free. aaaaaa !! suddenly i felt so sorry to him, although i really need to attend class today, but seems like my hesitate has disappoint him coz he do hav high-expectations in me like introduced me to the 8tv ppls during the career fair last time. shud i really have a try ? am i really into in field ? so far i dun plan to further my studies after diploma so lead me ppls, i need ur comments and commands..

while i keep hanging the words 'i wanna start study liao' close to my mouth, i play even harder nowadays. im so hopeless for going to penang for 3 days last week. friday to sunday, although the time is shorts, but i've visited Queensbay mall, it is nice but particulary i prefer midvalley. n 2 weeks later, i'll goto penang again to attend choohen's birthday party, coz he will going to oversea next year, so he'll held a birthday gathering party. i wanna start study liao, ridiculous rite ? muahaha.. im so so so overspent dis month, shop hard, play hard, exam also hard.. congratulations to my jimuis for the pleased stpm results :) ^^ felt happy for u all although i failed mine hehehe :)

well

i juz dun fucking understand y the hell there's still ppl like you on earth, y the hell and wats the point for critics her like a priceless cheap hen infront of me previously but in the fact u're kissing her ass as a shoe polisher and praise her like she's one-kind princess infront of her ? well, mayb like wat another-her said, dats the typical u in doing dis action coz u'll never grow up till the day u die from being a looks-like-mature-enough-women but fact u're still a childish small little girl. juz please dun critics anyone anymore if u're so damn eager to become close fren with dem coz there's no point from telling me their bads coz i dun even fucking know who are they and not interesting to know at all n juz pissed me off. u're so not worth to be fren with dem coz u'll never know the value of friend. u'll never know ! the ignorance can be fixed, but childish is forever...

my class will started next week, or i shud say its time to attend class after skipped the whole first week class, i've watched the haunted spirit and bridge to terabithia in these 2 days time. the haunted spirit is roughly talked about something like jumpi in thailand, kinda scary but quite funny in other way coz there's a character called as pookie in the movie huhu. about the bridge to terabithia, it kinda disappointing me coz i expect too much from the movie. narnia is waayyyy far better than terabithia. wuwu.

last sem's result gonna release at this coming 15th. although im quite worry about the result, but i guess there's 3 jimuis out there who is muchhhhhh mmmoooreee worried than i do coz they're collecting their stpm result, all the best dear cheng sharon choot and other candidates out there.. good luck dear girls =) !!

and.. its time to introduce,

obviously, im taken by him, mr tan wai men. who is a kelantanese which working in sabah right now n dump me all way alone right here eee. he's juz tooo sweet to be loved for all, really nothing much i could tell him besides thanks thanks and still thanks. there must be someone out there bringing us to the center of their topic recently, but who cares, coz they will never know how he treat me and how i ruined his life XD i knew his past, current and those upcoming ones, he's my current top soulmate, my current mr right, i dun care how far it will be, coz nothing is forever, and nothing is impossible. so ppls, either bless or shut ;) thanks for those blessed ones. muacks.